I overstepped my bounds perhaps, emailed Dr. Weber 2 days before MM's appointment. MM handled it better than I expected. With not much more to lose, I didn't care so much if he was mad or furious or hurt. it was just the opportunity to just maybe find out early if these oddities are the result of radiation or of new tumors. The chance for an early MRI, the chance for radiation treatment if tumors were small enough. Seeing how much he is enjoying living, being here with me and the boys. I just wanted to buy some more time. As everyone, except perhaps for me, already knows, MM did not see this as an opportunity to intervene early. So we wait for our regularly scheduled program of MRI and CTscans in mid July.
All is calm here in comparison to other recent months. Yet I have the sense that there is a murderer napping in the hall closet and I am too tired to stay on watch in case he wakes.